i didn't mention this the last time i saw my endocrinologist because i was too happy about my new cancer free status. while the cancer is gone, there is something else not so clear, however. my tsh levels are too high. tsh stands for thyroid stimulating hormones. they are not thyroid hormones, they are pituitary hormones produced by your pituitary gland in your brain. this determines the amount of thyroid hormones that need to be released by your thyroid. since i have no thyroid, i have hypothyroidism. meaning the thyroid is not producing enough hormones, or any in my case.
much to my dismay, my tsh levels are still too high. they were too high the last time i saw my doctor. having such high levels may potentially cause more health problems. i'm told it could be hazardous to my internal organs as well as other health issues i don't want (such as depression and heart disease). as a result, i've switched hormone levels twice now. it was .112 (the pink pill) for years. back in june, it was changed to .100 (yellow pill) and now, it is down to .88 (lime green pill). so hopefully that fixes me.
finally, i have a confession to make. i ♥ my endocrinologist. he is the greatest doctor, a compassionate friend, and loyal confidante. despite a recent and unfortunate weight gain :@), i felt happy and good about myself after seeing him. he makes me laugh and feel smart and beautiful. he is one of the coolest people i know. what is also great about him is that he is genuinely concerned about me and my well-being. i continue to see him because even though the thyroid cancer is gone, a thyroid problem still exists. rather than just be glad that the big problem has been taken care of, he insists on making sure that i am ok in the long run. this makes me happy because i was sad that i might not see him anymore. well, until he retires anyway...
thank you dr. bruhn.
